Cyrus Meadows

Party out to Sea

2008-10-04T17:25:00.000-07:00

The gentle rock to sudden jerks of the creaking wood
He pulled the steering this way and that
The waves ripple and break at the sides
The wind finds its way to dry my eyes

I’m lost and harbouring from touching anything
Something flaps above me, wanton to the wind
Sails are flocks of cranes in their most basic metaphor
And the sun is hiding behind the clouds

If the sun is hiding, whose birthday is it?
Is the sea invited?
I can’t see anything worth celebrating here
But my favourite hat is on the shore

I think the Captain got an invitation
Because his hat looks very nice
I’m not someone who is familiar with inferences
Although, I trust the Captain is used to these occurrences

The Captain and I search for the best party we know
Why else would we be out here?
They call it a horizon because it doesn’t end
But between you and me, let’s say it does

It’s getting colder now but I prefer just a t-shirt
The Captain’s beard just keeps on getting longer
I think the sun is about to ruin the surprise
As the Captain and I party out to sea

Empty Nights or Self-Doubt or The Man with the Pen is Dead (Part 3 Final)

2008-09-27T17:12:00.000-07:00

My dream is finished; I’ve found my rest
I’ve ascertained the answer to pass the test
My dream is finished; I’ve found my rest
I’ve ascertained the answer to pass the test

Her kiss locked my lips; I understood the properties of inertia
What was I to do? So, I released my lips to kiss back
All fear and desire to end my simple, confused, life had been intercepted
By this basic token, from an unknown girl, being accepted

She took my hand and led me away from the palisades
I followed her warmth and scent perpetually along the way
Who is this girl? Why was she there to seize my conflict?
But it was useless to understand such love I couldn’t realistically depict

Slowly her hand began to slip, but I wasn’t fazed
I still followed her through the thick air in my condition of dazed
The wind wisped her feet and faded her body from me
I remained still as she finally left nothing for me to see

My mind closed with the peace that I had been long waiting for
And I awoke with no appetite to feed my depression anymore
Still unsettled, but I am content with the world
And whatever happens is welcome to be unfurled

I now decipher this girl didn’t love me in the sense of Eros
But rather in Agape for her self-sacrificing actions to stop me from my ghost
And I gather that she valued my life as many of my good friends
But I’m thankful that this happened to show me life didn’t have to end

I’m not sure how much I can trust myself anymore
But I am optimistic about the future
And in the wake of self-doubt comes some sort of confidence
That I don’t understand, but I embrace with open arms

Empty Nights or Self-Doubt or The Man with the Pen is Dead (Part 2)

2008-09-27T16:38:00.000-07:00

What I expected has come true
I see my dream is the nightmare that I knew
What I expected has come true
I see my dream is the nightmare that I knew

Stretching each step on the long path
Focus amidst the confusion: for the future, for the past
Meeting the cliff edge in my mind
Visualizing the fall and giving it life

Erase the horizon on your own action and draw a new end
Cut the journey short and cheat a new way to death
Just over the hang of roots, I’ll be introduced to the warming wind
But I remember the words on the signs

“Match the rise and take the run,
The slope will take you whenever you’re done.
It will safely carry you to the ground,
And don’t worry after that, I don’t think you’ll have to.”

Tomorrow visits with or without me
So what’s the wait for, I’m no use anyway
Shutup and just run off the cliff
There’s no hope for me otherwise

A figure, a girl I can’t seem to recognize, rests at my side
Appearing suddenly as I kick to start my suicidal stride
She slows time and paces to the front of me and my path
Doesn’t she know that I’ll take her down with my momentum?

She’s now directly in my way and not moving
But my force isn’t slowing; this situation’s not improving
Immediately time stops and not a second to miss
As our bodies meet, only our lips touch for her kiss

Empty Nights or Self-Doubt or The Man with the Pen is Dead (Part 1)

2008-09-27T16:16:00.000-07:00

All my nights are empty now
And all my fears are coming down
All my nights are empty now
And all my fears are coming down

Slow my breath, but not too much
Crawl on my knees, but don’t use the crutch
Close my eyes let darkness surround
Remember no one’s got my back now

Venture out into the bleak, beyond is dark
One foot in front of the other, but not leaving a mark
I find myself drenched without losing a drip
Now where was that cane? I’m falling without a grip

Found in the middle, there’s no edge in sight
Escape from my mind is only possible with a little more light
Cruel for there is no specified exit to this sphere
But it’s imperative I leave before the dream becomes clear

Blood Thirsts for Blood

2008-08-30T20:42:00.000-07:00

Clinging on to the shackles I don’t want to retract
Fear of leaving from this prison is holding me back
The debt that I pay, a voluntary action of mine
But no means no and your requests are denied

I won’t pander to your incoherent suggestions
I’m not falling for your kicks in my direction
Though I can’t make my quivering eyes cease
And my clenched fist pounds till blood’s release

My hands shine red and drip like a sudden thud
For we all know that blood thirsts for blood
Each puncture runs as marked from a pin
And each cleansing wipe tears the next layer of skin

Exposed to the shattered broken mirror
Brought down under the clouds, seeing clearer
Taking what I need to fill my life
But the only thing in that hole is the ironically anonymous knife

Across the table I see the moist jar of clay
All this time it was my ignorant mistake
It was never my task to mold this manipulative jar
Naturally, my body’s keeping record of the scars thus far

My hands shine red and drip like a sudden thud
For we all know that blood thirsts for blood
Each puncture runs as marked from a pin
And each cleansing wipe tears the next layer of skin

Thinking that my patience, for me, has finally cracked
I’ll reasonably focus on the good whatever the act
Hoping someone will at least remember what’s left of me
Draining the last of the value for the collector to see

My hands shine red and drip like a sudden thud
For we all know that blood thirsts for blood
Each puncture runs as marked from a pin
And each cleansing wipe tears the next layer of skin

I’ve given all my vitality, there isn’t any more
Left alone in front of that familiar prison door
Every time I return, it’s a charge on the price
Maybe for this cost, my blood will not suffice

Erratic Operation

2008-08-13T14:52:00.000-07:00

From where sorrow glimpses my weary eyes
And my cold feet wander to the open shore
The red sunset falling to the western skies
Doesn’t bring comfort for the new morning anon

The fire’s embers lay their warm blanket over my face
Yet my recognition of my future chills my skin
Knowing the fear that finally approaches soon
Each icy capsule accepted reminds me of your grievance

When the day journeys across the blue
My arms fall to my weakened sides
Fell to my knees when the pain grew
And gave my life to disappearing hands

If I wake to find my existence
I’ll know I wasn’t worth the cause
And lie awake just yearning for death
To bring peace of mind to this corrupt heart

A Time Will Come

2008-08-06T18:13:00.000-07:00

When the sun is high
And the car seats are hot
And your laughter makes me cry
Because you laugh for someone else

My eyes wander in the ever-changing scene
My heart follows further than I can see
To when I can fall back into your arm’s dream
I wait for when a time will come

But your head is turned first
And when your eyes glance back at me
I feel as though you had rehearsed
And gave compassion, just enough to sustain my life

I bite my lip when I see you’re not around
We could be on the same bus and still get lost
Through the wailing of the wind we make not a sound
For if I am still part of your desire, a time will come

Who Knew?

2008-08-06T18:12:00.002-07:00

The first time I saw you
The blood and the mud oozed
But I saw my hands were dirty
And I pulled back my mask

Who knew that the cleanest filter
Was the filthiest anguish?

To lift my eyes to receive ultimate comfort
I received drips of blood and sweat
To raise my hands for the embrace of utmost security
I grabbed the slipping arm of a frail, broken man

Who knew that the most exquisite life
Came after the ugliest death?

When I came with lies to fake their worth
I traded them for dirt more valuable than high treasures
To accept the cleansing of the unimaginable truth
I had to see the eyes of the invisible forgiveness

Who knew that the savior of man
Was himself, the Son of Man?

Revised Life's Song

2008-08-06T18:12:00.001-07:00

Voices following me
But my silence is at the door
Sliding under the cover of whisper
Slipping into the break of song

Deepen my soul with angst
Flow Your zeal through my veins
Sooth my tongue with lyrics from Your melodious song

My lips are hardening to a nostalgic hum
Chapped to the rhythm of past embouchure positions
I fill the gaps with a swish of my tongue
Why must the dehydration return?

Shatter my dry skin
Tear out my flat lungs
Drown out the dead tune
Leave nothing on my lips but Your name

And when that air won’t escape with holy tone
Take my song and make it thine own

Heart Cry

2008-08-06T18:11:00.001-07:00

Hear this heart cry
Attend this weary mind
Bandage this caved spirit
To clear the deep depression behind

Pave each step I take
Lift each foot to the path
Draw me to Your well of life
Guide me with Your rod and staff

This is my heart cry
Throughout my troubled mind
Don’t keep me from your plan
I wanna walk to the Lord’s time

Fix My Heart

2008-07-03T14:38:00.000-07:00

You cracked my crown but, left my senses awake
Rip to my nerves and that’s all I could take
Kicked off my throne now my legs are before me
Beat down the road without my name to support me

The path ahead is dusty, dried up, and bare
It doesn’t matter because I don’t really care
What did I leave behind: wealth, fame, and glory
But now I see it was a fictional story

Disillusioned to the secrets of the real world
The sting of truth as the snares were unfurled
My mind was beyond repair from the genesis start
My final resort is to turn and fix my heart

When I give up and look at what I’ve done
When I can’t manage to breathe a single word
Before I leave in the darkness of the day
I’ll erase every trace of my name away

When I give up and look at what I’ve done
When death comes to take the prize it’s won
I’ll try to make it as easy as can be
Clear the scar when I cut in history

Disillusioned to the secrets of the real world
The sting of truth as the snares were unfurled
My mind was beyond repair from the genesis start
My final resort is to turn and fix my heart

Poems from Grade 5

2008-06-25T14:00:00.001-07:00

Okay, please don't laugh. I found some of these cute poems that I wrote in gr. 5, a long time ago. I never realized I was a poet at such a young age. Please excuse my lack of vocabulary back then, I'm certainly glad I've grown and matured. So, enjoy my embarrassment.

I Like Sounds

I life sounds
The jingle of keys when my finger is in the hole of the key chain swinging.
The roar of the crowd when the home team scores the game point.
The running of 50 people on a race track stomping and jumping to the finish line.
The sound of the radio quiet as a mouse at 9:00 pm.
I like sounds

Fear Is...

Taking the next step in life,
Not knowing what's ahead of you,
Being trapped,
When you're falling in an endless pit,
When you can't walk,
When you don't know when you're going to die.

Waterfall

Waterfall,
White and rough,
Rushing,
Pouring,
Crashing down,
Bolting,
Raging,
Not stopping.

Colours Are Feelings

Red makes me feel hot like a fire.
Orange makes me feel warm and cozy.
Yellow makes me feel bright like a light.
Green makes me feel like growing trees.
Blue makes me feel cold like at night.
Brown makes me feel weird and eerie.
Black makes me feel very very alone.
Purple makes me feel big and strong like a huge castle.
Pink makes me feel soft and fuzzy like a teddy bear.
White makes me feel special and included.

Not Enough Worth Looking Into Forlorn Eternity

2008-06-18T15:26:00.000-07:00

When the sun rises again
Can you open up these thick curtains?
Maybe this air will clear
But I've been breathing smoke for the past year

Crawl, to the door,
Look at the handle
Black and burnt

Lies and depression
Carry my flaws
I'll finish my own time
I'm not worth the cause

Wandering this endless world
Being beaten down has gotten too rough
Immortality has worn me out
But it didn't seem fast enough

Crawl, to the door,
Reach for the handle
The doors are all locked

Contempt and treachery
Add to my flaws
I'll finish my time here
I'm not worth the cause

When the sun rises again
Can you open up these thick curtains?
Maybe this air will clear
But there's a chance that I won't be here

Perfect Grey

2008-06-11T17:26:00.001-07:00

When will the time be right?
When will I feel alright?
My arms are open wide
I only hold myself tight

I wander and leave the road
To follow my path astray
I find new paths to take
But I can’t run away.

Where have I gone now?
I’m too far away
But the truth of it all is
I’m too far into the grey

And you can’t find me there
Because today I’ve left for here
My paths have lost themselves
But I see you in this tear

The trees grow tall to shade
The sun upon my face
The thorns around my feet
Keep me in this blood embrace

The bushes exceed the green
With the path they devastate
I no longer see the ground
There is no time to wait

Where have I gone now?
I’m too far away
But the truth of it all is
I’m too far into the grey

And you can’t find me there
Because today I’ve left for here
My paths have lost themselves
But I see you in this tear

If I could start again
From the road I would convey
To pour out all my colours
And dash this perfect grey

Thoughts of You

2008-06-10T17:44:00.000-07:00

When the day breaks and the light surrounds.
When the cold air departs leaving frost on these grounds.
When the birds arise and bring forth cheerful sounds.
I knowingly will think of you today.

Before I crawl out of bed and reach for my clothes.
Before I slip on my socks over my toes.
Before I'm alert and completely exposed.
I initially will think of you today.

As the morning reaches full height of prime.
As the minutes on the clock slowly make their climb.
As the task of preparing for the day comes in time.
I excitingly will think of you today.

If the clouds unforeseeably roll over my clear day.
If the rain falls down and covers the sky with grey.
If everything frustrating comes straight my way.
I regardlessly will think of you today.

When I return to my familiar home in peace.
When I grasp that the hectic period is beginning to cease.
When I relax on the couch and enjoy my release.
I contently think of you today.

Before I unpack my contents across the floor.
Before I reach for unwritten papers in the distinct drawer.
Before my work contains me, I can't ignore anymore.
I ambitiously think of you today.

As the light passes on, over the deep curve.
As I lay down to allow my energy to conserve.
As I recollect the day, and can't help but observe.
I continuously thought of you today.

If today has brought me blessings to grow.
If your presence has set my heart aglow.
If I could explain how much I love you, you should know.
I increasingly will think of you tomorrow.

Picture On The Wall

2008-06-10T17:43:00.000-07:00

The hallways were empty,
The lockers were bare.
You weren't in my sight,
So I envisioned you there.

I saw your picture on the wall,
I captured your smile, so complete.
And to see it after each class,
Kept me on the edge of my seat.

The immense cheer of your smile,
Your sparkling amazed eyes.
When I look upon that picture,
It refreshes my heart with surprise.

In My Prayers

2008-06-10T17:42:00.000-07:00

The window pane shatters light into the warm room,
The sheets lay unfolded across the bed.
I open my eyes to the invitation into the day,
Stretching out, I raise my head.

I know today you have left on your journey,
You should know you have my love and my cares.
I'm so excited for this time of spiritual growth,
And always know that I hold you in my prayers.

God has set a time of displaying his wonderful creation,
Take the time to love each and any segment.
Let Him open wide your eyes to His Day,
As He reveals the splendor of every element.

I know today you have left on your journey,
And to your kindness, simply nothing on earth compares.
But even though you're far away from me,
Always know that I hold you in my prayers.

May strength and compassion be with you on this mission,
Don't be afraid to actively demonstrate His great comfort.
And accept yourself into The Great Commission,
An Ambassador of Christ with the angels' support.

I knew that day you had left on your journey,
You should know you have my love and my cares.
I'm so thankful for your safe return to me,
And always know I held you close in my prayers.

In My Arms

2008-06-10T17:41:00.000-07:00

The more time you spend away,
Strengthens my craving to be in company.
There's so much I want to say,
So please keep near to me and you'll see.

When days don't seem to go as planned,
When you can't see an outstretched hand.
Because this world has always meant to betray,
So remain protected, in my arms to stay.

Without your angelic warm body to embrace,
Memories and reflected time are all I can hold.
I'll abide, for now, in your arrival anon in haste,
On account of your appearance, my hands will cease to be cold.

When days don't seem to go as planned,
When you can't see an outstretched hand.
Because this world has always meant to betray,
So remain protected, in my arms to stay.

Close to My Heart

2008-06-10T17:40:00.001-07:00

The thought of you came to me today,
Swept me off my feet,
Only to lay me gently in this dream,
And I wouldn't want to ever wake.

But I know you must leave now,
So I'll come back to say goodbye.
And when you return in time,
I'll be waiting to see you again eye-to-eye.

So I give you all my love when we'll be apart,
And wish you the best on your trip as you depart.
To let you know that I'm happy for you and want to impart,
That I hold you, everyday, close to my heart.

Clouded

2008-06-10T17:19:00.000-07:00

Undefined topics are clouding my head,
I don't know how to clear them out, I feel so dead.
Why am I stuck in a place with no ups just downs,
And to top things off I can't distinguish familiar sounds.

Who are my friends, do I have anyone I hold dear,
Is it really my friends who aren't keeping me near.
Am I the problem, the one who forces away,
Is it my choice to stop, which opinion do I obey.

With dismay, I will pay, so that I may stay, alive for one more day,
But the rules of my way, will not save me in the end.

Decisions made now will inevitably affect later,
These directions are from my heart now become my own traitor.
Is the world my influence, or am I the cause,
Of my spiraling life down into the jaws.

Will the ways of the world be like an addictive injection,
Will I be the rebellion or turn into its reflection.
I don't know the outcome, only God owns time,
But if I don't do something soon, I'll run out of mine.

I'll just try to clear my head, if there's a problem I'll reroute it,
To someone else for right now because my head is too clouded.

Worthless

2008-06-10T17:18:00.000-07:00

Look upon me, useless,
Corrupt and vile.
Forsake me now,
I'm not worth your time.

Neglect me, poor,
Pointless and ineffective.
Don't hesitate when you leave,
These tears can be deceptive.

Hate me, low,
Meaningless and insignificant.
Don't worry about my feelings,
Now discouraged, now indifferent.

Leave me, worthless,
Depraved and valueless.
Just send someone back,
To clean up this bloody mess.

Tragic Aggression

2008-06-10T17:16:00.000-07:00

So much turmoil twisting in my head.
I can't fix my focus on a single thought.
The sweat's pouring down, but my arms are shivering.
The pressure's building up and I know,

[CHORUS]
I'm gonna blow!
Into a thousand pieces, explode!
I have no control!
It's not anger, but I'll never lose this tragic aggression.

God of my soul, I thirst for you.
God of the mountains, I'll climb just to meet you.
God of my strength, Why do I hurt?
God of my trust, Why am I alone?

[CHORUS]

My morals gone, my values forgotten.
My principle lost, my goal's not in sight.
My purpose seems obsolete now.
No person to turn to, no place to go.

I'm gonna blow!
Into a thousand pieces, explode!
I have no control!
It's not anger, but I'll never lose this tragic aggression.

Unless you prove to me once again,
That these words I say are not the end.

Confessions and Requests

2008-06-10T17:15:00.000-07:00

Relief enters my mind, so exhausted,
Peace flows in my soul, so drained.
That waited day that you confirmed it,
The passion when everything was explained.

I tore open my heart with all haste,
Unaware of your affectionate reply.
My ecstasy could not fill the room,
And so that spirit aviated to the heavenly sky.

Your words so sweetly amorous,
Your tone so endearingly tender.
I would not dare stop my gentle feeling,
When that acknowledgment returned with marvelous splendor.

Now I wait on you with every heartbeat accounted for,
The respect I give to you is all I can.
Your place of honour I will regard,
And all I ask for is your patience in hand.

Cyrus Meadows is the Name

2008-06-10T17:14:00.000-07:00

Cyrus Meadows is the name, and I've endured so much pain.
Till standing in the rain, I released all that strain.
Before that moment was to arrive, I was breathing just to stay alive.
By March 5th, I was ready to die. It was time to break off that old tie...

on...
[CHORUS]
The Day He Washed My Sins Away.
When all the bells were ringing.
The Day He Washed My Sins Away.
And all the people were singing, they were, “na-na-na-na-na”

Drifting in life so hopelessly, When one day He called to me,
Said, “Cyrus, why can't you see? This is not what you were meant to be.”
Now I don't mind the simple way, and I don't care if there ain't enough pay.
“Ya take what ya need and ya leave the rest.”
But He wanted me to be put to the test...

[CHORUS]

Like my father before me, I'm a believing man.
And like his father before him, I took a rebel stand.
I was so young, yet tainted well; God had plans, but so did Hell.
And I swear by the Blood below His feet:
You can't raise the sins of the past when Satan's in defeat.

[CHORUS]

(A note that this is based on the song, "The Night They Drove Old Dixie Down" by The Band, and will not be released for profit.)

The First Time

2008-06-10T17:13:00.000-07:00

The first time I saw you, you were walking out the door
As you walked passed me I stared at your eyes and smile
You walked away not even noticing me
You looked perfect and I wish I had spoke to you but
You were walking far away from me

It's been some time since then but my feelings are the same
I don't know how long I've kept this locked inside
Now everytime I see you my heart goes up and down
I'm frightened and nervous just to hear your voice's sweet sound and
My feelings have always stayed the same

If I could have redone it
I would have sat down beside you
And held you in my arms forever
If there was a chance to repeat
I would have taken time
And shown that you're worth more than words in a song
But this is me...

And maybe I was just too scared
I did not say anything
I wish I could explain everything
But I just stood and stared

Your presence fills my heart with compassion
Yet my hands sweat clenched in timid fists
I don't know if I could ever confess to you
I'm hesitant and I wish that I could speak to you but
You are walking far away from me

Song Birds (Ballad)

2008-06-10T17:11:00.002-07:00

The Quail's Song

The quail chirps from striding through sunset
Inviting from a figure of silhouette
Summoning a voyage to pursue
Though cold streets stir chilled ground when come through
The galliform beckons to a haven
But finds not the familiar engraving
It points to a lodging for guidance
Where whispers grow after confession's subsidence
Inside, meals fellowship partaken
Yet broken is one host, forsaken
The quail sings of communion and consecration
The directive is cried to the nations
But if no one hears the song of the tiding
Thus shall it be shown after long hiding

The Sparrow's Song

The sparrow twitters over the pale moonlight
Keeping surveillance over travellers through grim night
Consoling those in fearful torment
On their knees from nightmares and lament
Somber is the mount where the dry leaves fall
Knowing what time awaits for all
Carefully it sings to bring comfort and company
For the lone one who waits for fulfillment to many
Understanding the torture of this grave thought
Leaving peace to the one, leaving others distraught
The sparrow sings of solemnity and meditation
The directive is cried to the nations
But if no one hears the song of the tiding
Thus shall it be shown after long hiding

The Crow's Song

The crow caws into the crowd of the parched foreday
Warning those who would slip in the display
Soaring through flame in murder over plateau
Flocks of murder above, viewing the murder below
Dry is the road and dry are the feet
But wet are the eyes when the destinations meet
Screeching above the jeers and below the weeping
Discontent and agitation are kept to those of keeping
The corvidae listens as all matters are put aside
And ALL the song birds stop to look upon the one crucified
The crow sings of sorrow and yet salvation
The directive is cried to the nations
But if no one hears the song of the tiding
Thus shall it be shown after long hiding

The Lark's Song

The lark calls, first in the cloudy morning
Waking the town from the grieving
Singing its song ever higher
Reaching to those who would suffer
Lament strikes the heart of their dear souls
Casting a cloak to hinder repose
The song bird tries with no hope in sight
By will it continues to sing high
This calling, not known to the masses
Its words are not heard as it passes
The lark sings of credence and subjugation
The directive is cried to the nations
But if no one hears the song of the tiding
Thus shall it be shown after long hiding

The Dove's Song

The dove coos in the pure light
Teaching those ignorant of the holy flight
Airbourne to bestow in us confidence
Administering to transfer knowledge of acceptance
Bewilderment strikes every witness
Acknowledgement sends impulse to profess
The columbidae reaches to exemplify
The one ascended, in whom we can rely
Its wings spread as it continues the mission
To bring all to a unified comprehension
The dove sings of utmost faith and dedication
The directive is cried to the nations
But if no one hears the song of the tiding
Thus shall it be shown when He comes riding

Eyes Drawn Down

2008-06-10T17:11:00.001-07:00

Eyes draw down
To the hand's unfolding motion
Tears fall from the frown
My fingers chilled to the bone

Where did I go wrong?
Silent love falls on my lips
Who am I, that I should take any initiative?
My place is by myself, and the rest is yours alone

It's been a long time since you looked at me
My arms fall down and no one picks them up
It's been a long time since we touched
And it's okay if your light has moved from me

But where did I go wrong?
Silent love falls on my lips
Who am I, that I should take any initiative?
My place is by myself, and the rest is yours alone

Where did I go wrong?
Silence is all I hear
It's not my place to speak
I might die of lost hope, the choice is yours alone
Don't lose hope

One Reason

2008-06-10T17:09:00.002-07:00

I saw you grinning by that spot at the door.
I felt so preoccupied, but I wanted you more.
Life becomes a claw which drags me away.
There's a rich struggle that tosses me each day.

I cherish my distance to view your flawless figure.
My containment is perched, resting upon a hair trigger.
To find you and embrace you would be my first action.
As the first time I saw you and began my attraction.

I know not every day I'll be able to see you.
And I realize that this sentiment is well overdue.
I just wanted to say, to me you are that reason,
That moral, value, and principle, you are the one.

Calor Dentro

2008-06-10T17:09:00.001-07:00

I look across the room to see your face
Glowing skin, perfect grin, warmth within
I sit across the room, I know my place
Glowing skin, perfect grin, brings warmth within

Your look, all my heart, it took
All along heard in my songs
Endless dreams to reach out to your hand
To bless your heart and understand
I understand

To imagine you each day in my mind
Glowing skin, perfect grin, warmth within
I'd rather hold you close as though entwined
Glowing skin, perfect grin, brings warmth within

After the Shower's Pour

2008-06-10T17:08:00.000-07:00

Glistening stripes
No beginning, inevitable end
No interception of its goal
Because the intention you can't comprehend

To break all silence
From matte rock to shining stone
All bear the light from the lamp
After the shower's pour

I'll walk down this raining street
Though it still rains into the dawn
Just because afterwards the rainbow will catch my feet
And there you'll find me slightly beyond

In The Shallows

2008-06-10T17:06:00.000-07:00

Water splashes to my face
The drops fall down the cold skin
The rush sends chills down the neck
Yet no moisture is soaked to this dry body

I stand in the shallows
Wiping the false satisfactions from my brow
Releasing my thoughts
Releasing the nothingness

Yet I will stand up tall
Casting a shadow over these walls
Raise my head above my low gaze
Walking away from what I left at the ground

Waves seek shelter behind me
Pressing on with each flux to reach the shore
Dragged back to the growing sea
Knocked out by the next determined line

I stand in the shallows
Wiping the false satisfactions from my brow
Releasing my thoughts
Releasing the nothingness

The light has given up,
Lost hope in trying to bring me back
The dark clouds roll in and sweep the air
Now the chills are blown through my body

I step back from the shallows
Wiping these false satisfactions from my brow
Releasing my thoughts of matters not my own
Releasing the nothingness that comes

And I will stand up tall
Casting a shadow over these walls
Raise my head above my low gaze
Walking away from what I left at the ground
What I left at the cross

This Tenebrosity is less Obscure than the Light

2008-06-10T17:05:00.000-07:00

As I climb these stairs
Just to reach these stares
I cannot force myself to drive these fears from any
Of my prayers

Why is the dark familiar?
Why is the dark familiar?

Living in obscurity
Trying to break for purity
Realizing we only have the darkness as our security

Why is the dark familiar?
Why is the dark familiar?

This tenebrosity is so familiar
Less obscure than the light

But reach my dreams with your scintillation
Reach my soul with your illumination
And we can break this hold
And we can break this hold
Hold onto this glinting coruscation
Why is the dark familiar?
Why is the dark familiar?
Hold onto this glinting coruscation

What is this tenebrosity anyway?

Abandoned Life

2008-06-10T17:04:00.002-07:00

Times in life that I wish you saw,
Hide my face, just forget it all.
Close my eyes and keep them shut 'cause,
With you I'll share.

With you I'll share this abandoned life. (X2)

Pushed me to the corner edge,
Left me without a grip on the ledge.
I look deep into your eyes,
And turn around to plunge myself.

'Cause,
With you I'll share this abandoned life. (X3)

No looking back, I've made my choice,
In this world, I can't be heard with no voice.
Say goodbye to all my friends because,
With you I'll share.

With you I'll share this abandoned life. (X2)

Nothing left to make a scene,
Better do it and make it clean.
All that's left is to count to three,
Maybe this was planned for me.

With you I'll share this abandoned life. (X3)

Times in life that I wish you saw,
Hide my face, just forget it all.
Close my eyes and keep them shut 'cause,
With you I'll share.

With you I'll share this abandoned life. (X3)

Poetic Conversation

2008-06-10T17:04:00.001-07:00

Boy:
Most people don't know I write at all
They look at me with their critical pens
Their eyes are fixed to the paper
And my words go unobserved

Girl:
How could they not know your work?
Photograph your letters and break the lens
Should the case be that no one receives
To the author of credit deserved?

Boy:
Everyone I know is oblivious
Never expecting what they get from me
Is the surprise a blessing to them
Or should I treat it as a woe to me?

Girl:
It’s a good thing I think
To be unpredictable, you see It’s something
I’d like to be more of
Do you disagree?

Boy:
Well, I wouldn't like that about you
I’m not sure you’re thinking ahead
You'd be too unpredictable for me to catch up
And I’d be left behind

Girl:
So you're saying I'm just easy enough to catch
And you wouldn’t want it arduous, you said?
Your effort would not be exerted on me
And too overwhelming for your mind?

Boy:
If you were any quicker, I'd have to run without thinking
Who knows what I'd stumble upon
And who'd be there to pick me up if you're already too far
That's why I always stay ahead

Girl:
You definitely are ahead
You’re a faint blur in the distance
That’s how ahead you are!

Boy:
Then these feet aren't moving until your arms are clear before me.

A Concern for the Fallen

2008-06-10T17:03:00.000-07:00

I see your shadow on the dusty road,
I catch a glimpse of your eyes.
You look back but face away from me,
You are not in complete demise.

What happened to those years of joy and laughter,
The years of old memories.
They are done, passed away, and forgotten,
Meaning nothing to you but not me.
__
I will hope for the day you return my friend,
So that one day we together shall see,
The final breath of the first creation.
Hoping brothers, we shall be.
--
You turned from the life of freedom,
Thought there were too many rules.
You rather made a life of fire,
And surrounded yourself with fools.

Now I'm not trying to condemn you,
Not turning your views into haze.
But I am trying to be there for you,
Be involved for all of your days.
__
I will hope for the day you return my friend,
So that one day we together shall see,
The final breath of the first creation.
Knowing brothers, we shall be.
--

11:14

2008-06-10T17:02:00.001-07:00

Red numbers to cloud my vision
No draft to cool this heated body
Hand over my chest, this soft melted skin
Waves reverberate under the humid sheets

A single droplet of sweat before the brow
Trickles down to the curve of my ear
Gentle course of persistent breathing
I've given up on fighting the air

Hand slides off the heavy abdomen
Head caught on the warm pillow
Moist neck takes a swallow
And eleven fourteen is all I dream

So Young

2008-06-10T17:01:00.000-07:00

So young,
You started to walk as soon as you saw in front of you.
Your eyes were slower than your legs.
Keeping close to protection, you felt untouched dew.
No knowledge of what was behind the trees.
No fear when they swept you away in the breeze.

So young,
You are restrained to the walls you see in front of you.
Your eyes are as driveling as your legs.
Confined to restriction, you see drops of rain on the glass view.
No knowledge of what is outside the capsuled room's freeze.
Fear overcomes you when you feel the breeze.

Awareness of Fear

2008-06-10T17:00:00.000-07:00

Fear instilled,
Installed into the program of every human.
Escape is without purpose.
There is no resistance and futility is certain.

Fear is used to gain ground.
An upper hand over all you choose to be with.
Find their weakness and criticize.
Exploit their frailty and emphasize it.

Allow their questions to hurt themselves,
Crush their hopes scatter their decision of love.
Agonize their soul into disbelief.
When all they want to do is prove to you
That:

Everything about you and what they see,
Is the person that they want to spend eternity,
With you they want to spend their lives happily,
And every instinct in their body wants this love to be.

And I know that this emotion is well delayed.
That's because I've had to deal with being betrayed.
And I know that this feeling is not easily displayed.
Because at the core of this heart,
... This boy is afraid.

Hate Comes in Packets of Pencil Crayons

2008-06-10T16:59:00.002-07:00

Don't pay attention to the man upstairs
He won't put an end to the fun he destroys
He needs to know why your money is growing scarce
Shouting down, “What's with all the noise?”

And you turn your head
Reveal your smile
Lay me down
But I still can't breathe

You can't understand how you are killing me
Lift all the footprints in the words you read
If life is a canvas then all you'll want
Is the hate in the packets of pencil crayons
Woah

You don't walk in the same shoes everyday
Divert your attention and close all the doors
It's you who can't see that I've dropped my gaze
Because your eyes don't want me anymore

And you turn your head
Withhold your smile
Leave me to rest
But I've forgotten how to breathe

You can't understand how you are killing me
Lift all the footprints in the words you read
If life is a canvas then all you'll want
Is the hate in the packets of pencil crayons
Woah

Leave me to breathe
Leave me to breathe
Leave me to breathe
Leave me to bleed

You can't understand how you are killing me
Lift all the footprints in the words you read
If life is a canvas then all you'll want
Is the hate in the packets of pencil crayons
Woah-oh

Where It Calls

2008-06-10T16:59:00.001-07:00

When the sun falls to never again reveal day
Hope is lost
And the stars lose their handle to bring comfort to strangers
Familiarity is forgotten
Rain finds marks to empty itself
Euthanasia is accepted
Night comes before day, made obsolete
Pain is sought

I can hear your name
In the dark where does it call?
When will we meet again
The road is all I have left

When the trees start burning from your fruit
Trust is deceived
And the ground is laid on bare
Apathy is indifferent
Green has no roots to grasp
Ignorance is ignored
Bound to the circles of the world
Echoes are welcomed

I can hear your name
In the dark where does it call?
When will we meet again
The road is all I have left

When the life ceases to persist effect
Lies are sufficient
And the avidity to seek amity is broken
Callousness is abundant
Friendship completes roles, transforming dysfunctional
Loneliness is dismally casual
Confidence shatters, stone after stone
Death is vague

Yet, I can hear your name
While in the dark where does it call?
But, when will we meet again
Because the road is all I have left

Whatever Happened to Sunday Afternoons

2008-06-10T16:58:00.000-07:00

The solemn calm,
Resting my eyes and laying down.
The sun and the song,
Rays of light into my day.

But days are quiet now.
Setting away.
Nights are cloudy,
Just fading gray.
The cheer and company have been swept so soon.
But whatever happened to Sunday afternoons.

Waking up just brings me down.
Happiness decides not to come around.
When I harbour sorrow, I don't care,
That joy will find a place to dock elsewhere.

My patience is driven,
To boundaries unending.
Pushing the limits,
Expanding, undescending.
I'm hoping that solemn calm will come soon.
Because I'm waiting for those Sunday afternoons.

The Vanity Of Life

2008-06-10T16:57:00.002-07:00

Here I am, in these days
I said I'd keep my tongue
And watch all of my ways

I'd even quiet my heart
When joy would take withdrawal
And silence would blanket it all

I'd refrain from even good
And taking on this curse
Causing all my sorrow to multiply

My heart grew hot within me
As I meditated, the fire burned
And all of my conscience turned

Show me the way
On the day I can apprehend
Show me my life's end

I am just a phantom
Passing between each breath
Moving in vain under the sun

What do I look for?
I'll trust in your aim
But do not let me put to shame

I was silent
I would not open my mouth
For you are the one who has done this

Remove your scourge from me
Because by your opposition
I am overcome and perishing

Hear my prayer
Listen to my cry
Be not deaf to my weeping

Look away from me
That I may smile again
Before I end this and am no more

Spectacular Buddy

2008-06-10T16:57:00.001-07:00

I've got this – spectacular buddy,
I've got this – wonderful friend.
If you ever have a problem,
An abundant hand, he'll lend.

He's always looking after me,
He'll catch me when I fall.
If I ever need a ride home,
Yes, he's the guy I call.

He smiles whenever he notices me,
And sustains my good cheer.
That's why I always think about him,
And imagine he's constantly near.

I've got this – spectacular buddy,
I've got this – wonderful friend.
If your soul is ever downcast,
A broken heart he'll mend.

He gives me advice on issues,
He keeps my focus straight.
He answers all my questions,
That's why he's my best mate.

He councils me on burdens,
He teaches me lessons on life.
He shows me how to deal with depression,
And how to cancel strife.

I've got this – spectacular buddy,
I've got this – wonderful friend.
If you ever need some comfort,
Then time with him, you should spend.

The Last Waltz

2008-06-10T16:56:00.000-07:00

Your sweet hair – shines in the light of the sky,
Your precious eyes – follows me into the night.
And when you see my love for your heart,
Then you'll know how much – that I care for you.

When we look in each other's eyes,
See the trust, and how deep it lies.
If you think, you're too far away,
Come back to me and I'll hold you each day.

The grace when you dance, astounding me.
Reminding me to keep swifter feet.
You flow like a river to the beat,
And melodies, you can't see.

The mandolin now comes into play,
Turning our bodies into sway.
Now we can start to dance to song,
Always keeping the music on.

When we look in each other's eyes,
See the trust, and how deep it lies.
If you think, you're too far away,
Come back to me and I'll hold you each day.

So look deep in my eyes,
See truth, there are no lies.
Fall in my arms and dance with me,
I'll show you love.

Fall in my arms and dance with me,
I'll show you love that you haven't seen.

Your sweet hair – shines in the light of the sky,
Your precious eyes – follows me into the night.
And when you see my love for your heart,
Then you'll know how much – that I care,
That you're aware, that I care for you.

Lamentably Unaware

2008-06-10T16:55:00.002-07:00

Bewilderment surrounded my today,
Caught up in a deep, clutching, strenuous fray.
I couldn't find your sweet face to relax me.

As each hour passed, I prayed for that glance.
That moment between our eyes confirmed by your breathtaking smile. By chance,
Did not occur that fateful event of scouting out the path for a familiar embrace.

Upon the time of social enjoyment, did I call out for your recognition.
You offered no response and I froze in that stricken position.
Stunned, I was, ignorant of the diminishing, fading surroundings.

With senses of partial satisfactory at the end of the day, I went.
Sorrow was the highest measure of my discontent.
But at my passing, I was the one: lamentably unaware of your swift arrival.

She's The One

2008-06-10T16:55:00.001-07:00

She's the last beams of the sunset,
She's the delicate breeze at night.
She's the snug morning bed,
She's my first cheerful sight.

She's the whisper in the wind,
She's the snowflake on my nose.
She's the angel in the clouds,
She's the single deep red rose.

She's the soft fuzzy blanket,
She's the same words I'm saying.
She's the other side of the pillow,
She's the last waltz that's playing.

She's the comfort that I'll always need,
She's the warm embrace that I'll receive.
She's the figure in the distance I can see,
And she's the only one for me.

Valentine

2008-06-10T16:52:00.000-07:00

Let the light dawn this morning,
Allow the sun to radiate your face.
May your tender eyes open to these words,
And settle to your heart, the warmest place.

Let these gifts be a sign of my devotion,
Allow them to share their affectionate meaning.
May your spirit always be joyful,
And I'll cherish your sweet smile gleaming.

Let this sad boy stop distressing,
Allow an ordinary, clear sign.
May you accept this humble request,
And be my Valentine?

The Wheels Still Turn

2008-06-10T16:51:00.001-07:00

This cognitive process fails to preform
Lost without any intention to regain my imagination
With the stop of this hurt inside of me
Poisons everything against desperation

The wheels still turn
But I decided to walk some time ago
And I'll miss you
But I know I'm setting my pace too slow...

The rain has run this dust away
But the air is light and the sky still clouds the same
Since you took my words
For your memory of me, I'll take all the blame

The wheels still turn
But I decided to walk some time ago
And I'll miss you
But I know I'm setting my pace too slow...

I'm holding my feet to the path
But each road is on the same wind
While the days go by and still no release
None of them lead me back to my mind

Simply Smile

2008-06-10T16:50:00.002-07:00

I can see your face right in front of me,
A simple glance and you're smiling back at me.
Now we're stuck, our eyes are locked in time.

My mouth opens but, I fear what I will say,
My thoughts are gone, so now I begin to pray.
I hope you'll love me for more than my way with words...
So,

Simply smile, smile,
Let me take in that smile.
My heart is pounding now,
I can't handle any more.

Simply smile, smile,
Let me take in that smile.
You know it makes me weak,
Though you continue to shine on.

There's only one thing to do,
Seeing you, I really have to,
And all I do is,
Smile back at you...

I open up my arms to embrace with you,
You jump up to meet me and wrap your arms around.
We stand together and hold each other close.

I stand back to see you once again,
You're blushing red that's something no one can pretend.
I'll remember that face till the end.

Simply smile, smile,
Let me take in that smile.
My heart is pounding now,
I can't handle any more.

Simply smile, smile,
Let me take in that smile.
You know it makes me weak,
Though you continue to shine on.

There's only one thing to do,
Seeing you, I really have to,
And all I do is,
Smile back at you...
(Repeat)

Sun on the Stone

2008-06-10T16:50:00.001-07:00

The coffee shop was open today,
I took a stroll in and found a solitary chair.
The sun found its light across the aged stone,
It reflected the light onto my face, and shone off.

Acoustic melodies flooded to my mind,
Uplifting me to raise my head.
Thoughts of you simulated infront of me,
Oh how I wished for you to be with me.

Your eyes, they're the most peaceful trance to fall into,
Your lips, they shine with charming glamour.
Your curly hair flows behind you shoulders,
Your cheeks flush with a dazzling glow.

These compliments can't encompass you,
You're too beautiful for my thoughts.
The best words I hear each day,
Is how blessed I am that you call me yours.

Remain

2008-06-10T16:49:00.000-07:00

I found myself thinking about you today,
Wondering if everything was still okay.
And I'm tormented so I'll just say,
That I don't ever want you to go away.

My head races every time I see your face,
My heart pounds in the hold of your embrace.
And this love will never find erase,
Just like I pray you don't choose to replace.

I know our care has the strongest connection,
Because every time I look into your eyes, I see my reflection.
And with you I will share all of my affection,
Because my heart would break facing rejection.

Days will come when it starts to rain,
When you think all you feel is pain.
But when your anger is without contain,
Know that, by your side, I will always remain.

The Darkness on the Walls is Adding to My Bitterness

2008-06-10T16:48:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I felt any peace.
It's been a long time since I knew release.

The walls are certainly closing in on me,
My safety remaining bereft.
But the depression comes from knowing that,
These walls are all I have left.

So I cry, without comfort.
'Till my eyes are dry, still no absence of hurt.
When all I feel is numb and I'm faced with my own worthlessness.
The darkness on the walls is only adding to my bitterness.

It's been a long time and the problem won't fix itself.
It's been a long time since I've seen myself.

The walls are certainly closing in on me,
My safety remaining bereft.
But the depression comes from knowing that,
These walls are all I have left.

So I cry, without comfort.
'Till my eyes are dry, still no absence of hurt.
When all I feel is numb and I'm faced with my own worthlessness.
The darkness on the walls is only adding to my bitterness.

Sitting, Thinking, Wondering

2008-06-10T16:47:00.002-07:00

I was just thinking about you today,
Sitting at the table to the side.
Thinking about how to present myself to you.
Wondering if I still need a guide.

Will I be able to stand before you?
Or will I be swept away by love's fearful tide.
Will I gain enough courage,
To take one after another stride?

I won't fear for the future,
We'll learn one step at a time.
I just was thinking about you today,
And imagining you by my side.

Who Is Man?

2008-06-10T16:47:00.001-07:00

The sky is lit up tonight,
The sun has gone out of sight.
The stars show the heavens now,
And in their twinkle you can see...

They're showing us the way back home,
By the splendor each one holds.
If you see them all this night,
Remember who gave them light.

Do we look at the stars because,
It is human nature's cause?
Or is the question really now,
Do the stars look back at us?

Gaze at the bright stars out there,
The shooting one, that one, can you see?
Each one the work of His hands.
They're purpose is to:

Reflect, the glory and the power,
Untouched creation at its finest hour.
That you are mindful of me,
Oh Lord, who is man?
(Repeat)

The Search For Peace

2008-06-10T16:46:00.002-07:00

Peace is something no man can make,
It comes from the heart, there's nothing fake.

Sometimes peace is granted,
Sometimes it's held back a while.
But one fact remains the same,
Peace to everyone, has its own style.

Everyone wishes for peace,
Whether for the world or just their lives.
But peace doesn't last for long,
And weakens the more it strives.

Whether it's peace of body or peace of soul,
Over when it becomes yours, you have no control.

Sometimes peace isn't there when you need it,
Sometimes that peace is with your friends.
But at least that help is comforting someone,
The hope of your brothers and sisters, it mends.

Everyone has those rough days,
When they don't care if peace comes or goes.
Along with peace they lose their conscience,
Of the future consequence, no one knows.

Whether it's peace in life or peace after death,
Everyone will have to take a final breath.

Sometimes peace comes at the end of your life,
Sometimes many people are unwilling.
But this I know with all my heart,
The peace that He gives is fulfilling.

Everyone looks for peace and purpose in life,
Wondering when the two shall meet.
But everyone should realize that leap of faith,
Will not land you on your feet.

Whether it's peace of heart or peace of mind,
There's nothing that compares to the peace that you find.

Golf

2008-06-10T16:46:00.001-07:00

It is indeed a questionable game,
That persistently leaves you mad.
Always wondering why you dare came,
asking what pleasure was to be had.

Now you're afflicted with this plaguing curse,
As you venture out onto the quiet green.
You predict it'll soon become increasingly worse,
And you understand what I mean.

The small, piercing, white tee is in place,
and the ball is set.
You cringe with a squinted face,
as the final blow, you let.

So scout out for the poor ball you lost,
And thereafter leave this sport forsaken.
That you compulsively paid the cost,
For every other four-lettered word was taken!

Shaken

2008-06-10T16:45:00.002-07:00

The world has been shaken,
Rent asunder.
People are questioning,
It's left me to wonder.

Is there any truth left,
To place my hope in.
Others say it has gone,
Seeming there's no structure to strengthen.

Have these generations collapsed,
The story of our fathers.
Is there no integrity,
The future of our sons and daughters.

You listeners will say,
This is the truth unescapable.
But I cry, "You are wrong!"
We are exceedingly capable.

Together we can lead,
This one nation to peace.
By showing our love,
And making relational discords cease.

Though this world may be against me,
I shall rise and awaken.
Praise the Lord,
And make sure the world has been shaken.

The Disease Is Here

2008-06-10T16:45:00.001-07:00

The disease is here,
No one knows when it begins.
It destroys the soul,
So that no one wins.

It starts with your mind,
Sneaking in through your eyes.
It plants thoughts of pleasure,
Corrupted with lies.

It seeps to your heart,
Taking it captive as a prize.
It kills all of you hope,
Until every act of love dies.

It spreads to your hands,
Controlling actions to others.
It freezes your muscles,
Causing the death of brothers.

You've lost your way now,
You've accepted fate.
But don't give up hope,
It's not too late.

Fight the battle everyday,
No matter what the cost.
For if you ever drop your sword,
You know that you have lost.

The disease is here,
No one knows when it stops.
It destroys the soul,
Until your body drops.

Speak Out

2008-06-10T16:44:00.000-07:00

Sitting, all alone, on my bed, there's no cover.
Staring at the papers on the floor.
Open to the ways that I did once believe in.
But I don't seem to anymore.

Look out the window.
See the lights.
Squeeze my cold hands.
It's just another night.

I'm going to speak out what my faith is.
I'm going to not be put to shame.
I'm thinking of what I'll say to them all.
My only hope is that I will not fall.
I'm going to speak what's in my heart.

Broken relationships, dispersed around me.
Just another reason for my discontent.
Careless actions taken by the people I seem to know.
But I will never be amidst their way.

I seem them there.
In the open space.
Just need the courage.
To show them my true face.

Releasing my fists as I bury my head down.
Waiting for the day I feel is right.
Just before I leave I begin to lose purpose.
Someday I know I'll tell, but not tonight.

Fix up my papers.
As I should.
Close up my back pack.
Close up emotions for good.

Someday I'll speak out what my faith is.
Someday I'll not be put to shame.
With this whole issue I cannot cope.
Talk to God is my only hope.
Someday I'll speak what's on my heart.

Living just to Breathe

2008-06-10T16:43:00.000-07:00

Searching just to find nothing
Speaking just to kill silence
Trying just to stop quitting
Living just to breathe

Will the rain fall without notice?
When nothing phases me from the peculiarities
Who will take observation?
Kneel down and pray with a trigger

Holding just to surrender everything
Reflecting just to forget noise
Loving just to hide pretending
Living just to breathe

Will the rain fall without notice?
When nothing phases me from the peculiarities
Who will take observation?
Kneel down and pray with a trigger

Without A Sound

2008-06-10T16:40:00.000-07:00

I'm so ashamed of what I did that day,
I couldn't even bare to face you.
I wanted so much to reach out to you,
But I think by now you've seen the clues.

Why can't I build the courage?
Why do my feet grow cold?
When my direction is towards you,
My desire, I cannot hold.

When I stood to meet you,
Others began to crowd around.
I couldn't find the right time,
And you left without a sound.

Why can't I build the courage?
Why do my feet grow cold?
When my direction is towards you,
My desire, I cannot hold.

I thought that was the right place,
To tell you the feelings I could portray.
But every time that I approach you,
My eagerness fades away.

Why can't I build the courage?
Why do my feet grow cold?
When my direction is towards you,
My desire, I cannot hold.

In Your Words

2008-06-10T16:39:00.000-07:00

I ask you what you're doing,
You simply reply, “watching T.V.”
Girl, you know I love that because,
That's what where I want to be.

We talk on endless hours but,
You wouldn't necessarily say, “rolled your eyes,”
You just carry on with the words we're saying,
Stringing them together till we say our goodbyes.

You can see who I am now,
Understand how abstract and exact.
In your words you say I'm, “unpredictable,”
Well as a matter of fact... YES.

You're coming to steal my heart away,
With your ways of endearment.
You think I'm so great, that I could get along with anybody.
But it's only that you compose me in that manner to its extent.

It's even worse than you thought sometimes,
You're extremely curious, scared and distraught.
It's making you nervous but you didn't think it was possible,
You say, I'm even more wonderful than you thought.

You can see who I am now,
Understand how abstract and exact.
In your words you say I'm, “unpredictable,”
Well as a matter of fact... YES.

You know you're teasing me in your words,
Trying to catch me off guard.
Bring on the heat,
You won't crack this boy if you fight hard.

You know nobody's perfect, you'll try,
Finding out where I will stumble.
I can take any punch you throw at me but,
If you walk away I'll crumble.

You can see who I am now,
Understand how abstract and exact.
In your words you say I'm, “unpredictable,”
Well as a matter of fact... YES.

Highlight Of My Day

2008-06-10T16:38:00.000-07:00

Your charming habits brighten up my day,
Like looking deep into me with those clear eyes.
That smile opens my heart with cheer.
You don't know how much that means to me.

You talk about life and ask me questions on my views,
Down to the little speculations no one notices.
That's fine, you can take the mustard and I'll take all the ketchup.
I love the way we never run out of things to say.

[CHORUS]
On and on, we keep on talking.
Hand in hand, the life we're walking.
Ear to ear, your grin sustains me.
Your friendly embrace is the highlight of my day.

The looks you give me never cease to shatter my false front,
You know how I feel and are so understanding.
Taking the time to be extravagantly compassionate,
Taking my breath away.

[CHORUS]

I don't know what you see in me,
I may be smart, but I'm nothing special.
You still wait on me with your caring heart.
I'm so blessed to meet a girl like you.

On and on, we keep on talking.
Hand in hand, the life we're walking.
Ear to ear, your grin sustains me.
Your friendly embrace is the highlight of my day.

Epic "PC I.E."

2008-06-10T16:37:00.000-07:00

This infinite being,
Marvelled by it's surpassing performances,
Granted access to wonders across the earth.

Freely administered its wise knowledge,
Opening windows of comprehension,
Completing the same function since its birth.

I gaze astonished at this worldly creation,
Observing each action of its purpose,
This construction is entitled to be respected.

Taking the time to respond to my request,
His enlightening words to me were,
“You are being redirected.”

Fallen back bewildered to this message,
I felt honoured to be shown this secret,
This admission must be exceptionally profound.

To be navigating so long and have my hopes dashed,
I cursed into the display of my work as it replied,
“404 Error – Not Found.”

Ambiguous

2008-06-10T16:36:00.000-07:00

Your words float around my head in ways,
That can only be seen in places without certainty.
I'm drifting to the edge of what I view as a phase,
We'll reach our point when we clear this debris.

You're fading out into the distance,
Why can't you make a conscious decision to come back.
I'm so unfamiliar to your voice, losing your existence,
Forcing each part of you in my heart to misery in black.

Your sorrow is pounding into my life,
Will I be able to hang onto you for any longer?
Your cutting our strings with hatred's serrated knife,
I'm on my last thread and all I want is to connect stronger.

You're fading into the distance,
Leaving obstructions for me to fall across.
Nothing is left to bring me comfort and assistance,
Left without complacency to this searing loss.

Do I follow your trail so blindly?
Why should I ensue such a bleak, meaningless cause?
While I persist to make this work, you abscond idly.
I can't keep up with these many plans turning to flaws.

So you're fading into the distance,
I just can't pick up the pieces to this mess.
I've finally dropped this long persistence,
Because all you've left me with is your words of ambiguousness.

Read

2008-06-10T16:33:00.000-07:00

I lift my eyes up,
To clear blue skies.
I lift my eyes up,
To valleys wide.

I set my feet upon,
The flat rock face,
I set my feet upon.
The mountains made.

(Chorus)
These people in the valleys,
Look up to the sky.
They don't know who made the mountains,
And they don't know why.

(Tag)
All they want to do is be stuck in their lives,
All they want to do is give up their sight.

So many people today,
Think they know what God's thinking,
So many people today,
Won't just shut up and listen.

They dictate His word,
Like it was their own.
They dictate His word,
But nothing is known.

[CHORUS]

The people of the world,
Making decisions for themselves.
The people of the world,
Just want to prolong their health.

The history makers,
Don't know where to look.
Oh you history makers,
Why don't you just read that book.

[[CHORUS]]

(Tag end)
Why don't they just read?

My Understanding

2008-06-10T16:31:00.000-07:00

Blissful ignorance was what I believed.
Content tranquility set the establishing scene.
Dramatic endurance was what I prepared for.
Obliviously negligent to the wounds it tore.

The Nazarene driver long sat at the wheel.
Always headed straight, the destination not revealed.
The road was wide and continued for a lifetime.
But He carried on the narrow lane to show me the signs.

The wheels kept turning, but the driver soon faded.
I sped to the curb and crashed, left jaded.
I bled to the sidewalk, smoke filled my lungs.
The car destroyed with flames spewing as of tongues.

A man strode towards me with the tails of his whip.
My strength useless against the struggle with this stranger's grip.
Who was this spear in my side? Who could it be?
I turned my broken body discovering it was me.

The sun began to wane and my bravery, digress.
My evil figure scolded me with, “Welcome to the Darkness.”
The sky disappeared and only us remained.
But I could not stand, my vitality nearly drained.

My eyes glistened, empty of all previous courage and trust.
I was my enemy, the cause of this self-destruction and disgust.
Beating me, flogging me, and kicking me to the side.
All that I thought of was the One, for me, who died.

He asked, “Where is your Shepherd whom you claim to be near?”
With faint reply I told that imposter that I do not have any fear.
With that, his whip began to crumble along with the opaque day.
The sun shone brightly and his body shattered in disarray.

I stood, my pain healed in His name, living in the Light.
His sacrifice has made me stable, wearing his cloth of white.
The dust on my sandals still is carried along the road,
And I can't lose thought of that affliction I was shown.

Now I walk down our old lane with no car to comfort me, I know,
I cannot return because I had made my choice long ago.
I finally understand why after that time you made me again renew.
So that's why I also made the choice to now walk with you.

All Up To You

2008-06-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

I hunger for your astonishing grace,
Anxious for another look upon your face.
When will I see you again?

You gently sweep into the room,
I want to reach out and hold onto you.
But I know that's not my place.

Unless you wanted me to be...

[CHORUS]
With you for all our lives,
Spent through eternal ties.
I want this love to last forever,
But it's all up to you.

Your curled hair flows behind your shoulder,
Your smile brightens me up when the days grow colder.
I adore everything about you.

I'm fascinated by your morals and stories,
You teach me truth and silence my worries.
I know we're young but I can't wait until we're older.

So that you can say I'll be...

[CHORUS]

I'm waiting for your recognition,
To see that my heart is wishing,
To be the only creation for you.

I hope that you think this way too,
I know this might be too much to ask of you,
But you in my life is my strongest ambition.

When I get your permission to be...

[CHORUS]

Looking in your clear blue eyes to be...

With you for all our lives,
Spent through eternal ties.
I want this love to last forever,
But it's all up to you.

A Handful of Air

2008-06-10T16:28:00.000-07:00

“The Outcast”

Black hand in the sky.
It reaches over the clouds.
Only there, it rains.

“The Community”

One drop, two drops, three.
And then you begin to flow.
Yet you are not one.

“The Individual”

From each form you fall.
Creation unthinkable.
Each crystal unique.

Extraordinary Sense

2008-06-10T16:26:00.000-07:00

What is happening to me,
I'm crazy, some say,
But I know this emotion deep inside.

My stomach is rushing 'round,
My knees are quivering.
This feeling I certainly recognize.

[CHORUS]
Yes, I know that I love you,
In an extraordinary sense,
That no one can seem to define.
And if you say you love me too,
Then there'll be no reason to fear,
And everything will be alright.

Out of all the workmanship,
The world has ever made,
Nothing can place their mark on you.

For you are God's creation,
Made just the way you are,
And I behold you precious, this is true.

[CHORUS]

Oh I believe...

Yes, I know that I love you,
In an extraordinary sense,
That no one can seem to define.
And if you say you love me too,
Then there'll be no reason to fear,
And everything will be alright.

You Are My Element

2008-06-10T16:25:00.000-07:00

I recline over the rock face,
But you do not risk to falter your stare.
I prop my elbow upon the moss surface,
But your eyes don't waver their glare... as of air.

I set my feet in the etched stone bedding,
Looking up from our base at the river's birth.
Then I gaze into the structure of our life's love,
I see its foundation and its worth... as of earth.

I push my legs out and stretch,
I feel every muscle in my body stressing hotter.
I shuffle closer to your resting position,
You mold yourself nearer too like a potter... as of water

You break your sight to glance upon my face,
You see the trust and patience you admire.
I put my arms around you as you lean in to kiss,
I sense the melting passion of your heart's desire... as of fire.

The Lament of Our Pride and Ignorance

2008-06-10T16:15:00.000-07:00

What do you want?
Why are you talking to me?
Have you just come to taunt?
Or do you again disagree?

Is what I'm doing wrong?
Are you looking for the truth?
Are you not following along?
Have you not seen the proof?

Why do you anger me?
Will you constantly lie?
Why can you not see?
Will you drive me to cry?

I left you to your own rules.
You have your own life.
You chose not to use your tools,
And so you picked up your knife.

I didn't know how to save you.
I thought I lost you forever.
Then I knew what I had to do,
It was then or never.

But you should be your own master,
You should be the one.
Who keeps yourself from disaster,
Who had to forsake his son.

Production

2008-04-30T17:45:00.000-07:00

Hello viewers!

This is a quick message to our media fans. I am proud to announce that new production, after a long pause, will be starting up again on June 1st. Sorry for all the delays, but we will be starting work soon and hope that it will be as good, hopefully better, as our previous films. We do not yet have a direction, but are looking forward to where inspiration takes us. We'll keep posting as long as you keep in touch.

Blessings,
Cyrus

Exchanging

2008-04-26T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hello viewers!

Once again, just another personal update. I've decided to take a little replacement for other sites. This means that I will be posting more often on this page, rather than sites such as 'facebook'. Haha, I'm sure for most people, they will still check my facebook more often. I find this blogger site a really excellent and efficient tool for spreading my thoughts more quickly (if that's a correct grammatical statement...) I'm looking more forward to people sending comments and am eagerly awaiting feedback on what else I can do to improve this page. Please keep in contact and be aware of frequent posts!

God Bless,
Cyrus

Introduction

2008-04-23T16:22:00.000-07:00

Hello all and welcome to my blog site. I am known as Cyrus Meadows and I work for a media production team called Vi-Con Studios. Unfortunately, our media website is down, but feel free to roam around exploring some of my written works. Please use the Directory for navigating through links such as Poetry Shout, a complete list of some of my poems. Not very exciting, I know... but I hope you can leave here feeling enlightened and breathing easier. Cheers!